From my journal:
9/7 6:20pm California Time
Words are failing me.
And you know how rare that is for me.
But the past week...
I am overwhelmed.
It doesn't help that it's 2 or 3 am where I'm headed, and it already feels like it. I've done well on jet lag this week - the sleep deprivation approach works - but I haven't slept particularly well - or long - most nights this week, plus there's the emotional upheaval of seeing-so-many-loved-ones-then-having-them-snatched-away-for-another-nine-months.
Just a little taste of America - the real America, the land of friends and family and decades of memories, not to be confused with the dizzying, snarling, ugly consumerism I glimpsed in CostCo and Macy's and on billboards across the Bay Area - there's something wrong with you, something truly awful and unworthy, but if you spend a lot of money, maybe you can hide it just a little longer - just enough of a taste to be reminded of what I don't get anymore.
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